I know that I rarely step on here and take the time to even be amusing let alone interesting.
I think that I simply have not bothered to participate because I feel as if I just don’t have very much in me anymore. I used to have something to say, or at least just some jackass comments to make. These days I feel as if all I have is the ability to whine and complain. No one wants to hear that, and ultimately I really don’t have the right. I really don’t have things so bad, just a few things are out of step and I appear to be stuck spinning in it rather that doing anything about it.
A few weeks ago I had some motivation and some ideas. How do I make it actually happen?
Where did I go? In that I mean me. What happened to me? It is like I need help in pulling out that underlying person that is still in there somewhere. How do I put these ideas in motion? How do I stop feeling so alone? How do I get my mind to stop spinning on nonsense?
Really, I invite any suggestions here. Because right now, I just kind of feel useless, alone, and unmotivated. There are those rare moments when the spark comes back. But it is usually only long enough to race through some ideas without any execution.
I’m feeling guilty a lot lately. And I have stopped doing a lot of the things that were keeping me motivated. I’m hoping that I can make right all of the things that I feel I’ve caused to go wrong.
Can anyone ignite the spark?