How To Disappear Completely


That there, that’s not me.  I go where I please.  I walk through walls.  I float down the Liffey.  I’m not here.  This isn’t happening. – Radiohead

You cannot hide behind your own visage.

Your insecurities are audible through the static of hyperbole.

Your insubstantiality is betrayed by recycled words and impersonation.

Yet you woke up again this morning and gave yourself a wash, a shave and a look.  You told the mirror that you don’t care what anyone thinks, as you continued to primp and preen for the benefit of the reflective glass above the vanity.  As you practiced confidence, the nerves within your joints understood that you fear even the mirror’s disapproval.

Look at me! (Don’t look at me!) you shouted to the world as you stepped outside; but nobody heard, because they weren’t listening any more than they were looking.

Only you can care so much about you.  Those who know you know there’s no you but tell you you’re a great you because you ask them to.  You bask in flattery that you solicit through coercion.

I hope one day soon you’ll awaken with your eyeballs facing outward.  The first thing you’ll see is the sun.  The last thing you’ll see is the moon.  And in between, you’ll see many others trying to hide behind their own visages; impersonating hipsters and demigods, talking in hyperbole and plagiarism.  They are just part of the landscape.   Don’t pay them any mind and for Christ’s sake, don’t imitate them.

Why not release your burden and become a god?  It’s really quite simple.  All you have to do is forget your name and smash your mirrors.  When you allow yourself to disappear completely, you’ll finally discover your divinity hiding in plain sight, waiting to be reclaimed.

12 thoughts on “How To Disappear Completely

  1. I know this is serious, and I love it, but at the same time I couldn’t help thinking of that Monty Python sketch “How Not To Be Seen” where people are hiding behind bales of hay and bushes…

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  2. ‘I hope one day soon you’ll awaken with your eyeballs facing outward. The first thing you’ll see is the sun. The last thing you’ll see is the moon. ‘
    Paul, these words have pierced my soul, and I feel shaken. Truly. Your ability to articulate your thoughts in such a profound and thought provoking way never ceases to amaze me. You always find a way to blow my mind – and you have here once again. You are such a gift. And your words have changed me. Wow. Do you know you are a genius? Just curious.

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    1. Wow, Tanya. I don’t know how to express my thanks for your incredibly kind words, other than to take that inspiration and try to do it justice. I’m no genius, but to hear that my words have that much of an effect on someone of whose writing I am a die-hard fan is the best creative motivation I’ve ever gotten.

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